Today we are going to talk about the 5 signs of dissociation because it’s more common than most people think. Research shows …
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Iāve dissociated and hit my boyfriend before. I donāt remember it but my boyfriend told me he have. I also dissociate a lot when Iām getting yelled at
idk if i dissociate but i zone out all the time.. im just kind of there and then im not and then im back again and an hour has passed. i dont even feel it.
The experience i remember that gets me the most is when i was working at walmart and suddenly while pushing one of the L carts, i felt extremley odd. I felt confused and foggy for a solid min, the lights seemed brighter than usual, things were just a little fuzzy, it was hard to process thoughts. I felt mostly mentally present but was still looking around and thinking running through my head like a checklist "wait, whats going on? Im standing here at walmart… im in my vest so im working.. holding this cart with random things in it… i guess i was just cleaning under the counters. I need to take theese to the bins in the back." then it would click and id remember everything and things would start to clear up a little and id remember what i was doing. Then i felt alot of anxiety after because i didnt understand what had happened. Any idea what this is?
I have a couple of things that happen that I donāt know whether or not itās a part of this. Sometimes I feel like Iām literally pulled up out of my body by a few feet and dropped back in. Makes me twitch slightly because I felt like I was falling, and being back in my body is disorienting and balance is hard. There are other times where it seems as if there is this field of deafening silence. Itās silent that it feels like a thick field. It is usually accompanied by a ringing in one or both ears and a loss of balance and of feeling that I know where I am in space or time.
Have you guys heard of this or experienced any thing along these lines??
For me, it feels like i don't know where i am or what i am doing. i dont cry or feel sad. Sometimes, i want to cry but forget what i was sad about. I dont have a future or past. I just wake up everyday to feel numb and go back to sleep. Nothing else. It is very empty.
I think I disassociated when I had my son, natural birth, 10lb baby. It felt like I was being murdered, like stabbed to death maybe, for hours and days. (In reality it was probably only one hour). I sort of went out of my body, there was a lady in the bed making sounds like an infant crying (scream, take a deep breath, scream, take a deep breath, like the whaaahhh of a baby crying) and the lady in the bed had a lot of pain and I felt her pain. But I didnāt feel pain, if that makes any damn sense at all. Almost like when you watch a movie and itās sad and you cry for the situation the main character is in, but all along you know thatās not really happened to you, that itās a movie and that this is an actor. Thatās what the birth was like, I was watching this lady be in pain and I felt her pain but it was me and and I heard her screaming but I wasnāt screaming, I was sorta on the ceiling in the room. And then he was out and the light coming in the window was soooooo warm, it just enveloped me in the most pleasant warmness and I just was staring at the light and I just wanted to sunbathe in this light forever. I wanted nothing to do with whatever was happening in the room, nurses were talking to me but I had no interest in what they might be saying because I was in the light and finally peaceful. Is that disassociation? It was so weird.
I don't think this is dissociation, but I'm not sure what to name a certain state of mind I had yesterday– I felt kinda of… Spacey inside, as if my entrails were never there and the only thing filling me up was the void . I also felt kinda "distant" from the world. I don't know how to explain it because I am not currently feeling like that right now, so I don't remember the details, BUT I did not see myself in 3rd person, the only thing is that I was staring off into nothing
I'm kind of here to double check on something. Yesterday after work I didn't feel like myself or I felt a feeling I've never felt before. Best word I can descibe it was numb??? Orrr idk I knew i was physically there but not 100%. It lasted from 1pm till the next day (today) and I'm only just now questioning it because it was out of character for me. It's weird trying to remember the feeling but at the time I didn't notice š
It's pretty awesome being able to read the comments and see everyone pinpointed literally EVERY single exact thing that also happens to me when I dissociate.
When I depersonalize now I use it to my advantage, I tell myself lifeās ājust a gameā and carry on pretending in a very lighthearted and silly way until it goes away lol
I donāt think itās dissociation that Iām feeling, but I canāt process the fact that Iām real. Saying it is no big deal. yeah, I guess I exist, but I still donāt feel convinced. I can slap myself across the face and it will feel like someone else hit me, like I donāt have the physical ability to touch or feel. I canāt focus on things visually, either. I canāt name a single time in years that Iāve actually looked directly at something. I always feel like Iām zoned out and looking off into the distance. People have gotten angry at me for staring directly at them for minutes on end, and I didnāt even realize I was looking at a person.
Also, is thinking nonstop normal? I donāt mean like processing my surroundings. I mean thinking random things that sometimes canāt even be described by words, and more than one thing at a time too. Like right now, Iām simultaneously thinking about what Iām writing, how edgy it must seem, and oddly enough, about what would happen if I broke a bone this weekend.
I am wondering if this is the same as what I've experienced. Throughout my life I've occasionally been struck with this sudden realization that I am a real person. I exist and others perceive me to be real. I am a sister to someone. I am someone's daughter. But it somehow doesnt feel real. Like it's all been a dream or something. I haven't experienced it in a while so I can't remember exactly but I'm wondering if anyone can relate
I heard of people that experienced the Alice Phenomenon, which makes them feel like they shrink or grow. Sometimes I just feel like I'm swaying but sometimes experience something similar to the Alice Phenomenon. Sometimes I wondered if it has something to do with my blood pressure or something. Idk. Yes, I wondered what kind of woman I should be. So I guess I have dissociation too. That's why I like to have people around to distract me from dissociation.
Iāve been trying to figure out whatās wrong with me, because Iām aware whatever Iām constantly feeling isnāt normal, but I never knew exactly what it was or if thereās a name for it. Sometimes I feel like the only one in the world who has this feeling because my environment consists of ppl who seem soā¦. Connected to themselves and who they are. I think this is the closest Iāve ever gotten to naming and knowing whatās wrong with me. I have most of these symptoms and Iāve been dealing with foggy memory, foggy mind, limited emotions, and especially not even knowing myself. A lot of the times I canāt describe this feeling and often just say āI donāt knowā as a description of it, considering itās so complicated. Iām tired of living like this every day, and itās been happening for 2 years now. I canāt get a therapist, I doubt school counselors help, and the online therapyās Iāve seen usually require money. Iām lost Iām confused and Iām tired of living like this 24/7. Whatever dissociative feeling I have, it interferes with my everyday life and I canāt live like this anymoreā¦. Any suggestions on what I can do?
I donāt even realize how stressed Iāve been for so long until you describe these things and then itās like wow Iāve been stressed for along time I guess?
I have this everyday I smoke bud everyday and other stuff that aināt gd š And I feel as if Iāve been loosing my sanity my friends just see me as the dopey one that isnāt there I loose track of the task Iām doing as Iām doing it. Iām so easily distracted does and one know what u should do? Iām stopping smoking/drugs etc
I don't know if it's disassociation or not but randomly in the day I feel as if I cannot function properly I mean I feel toxicly positive and my brain tells me it's alright when some part of me is in a state of panic, in such a situation for example mid exam I can't focus I don't know how to put the feeling into words…
Is it bad that I no longer can "feel" sometimes. I can't tell if I'm myself anymore. Then I suddenly get snapped back when someone even remotely triggers me. I'm so terrified of "feeling" again, its comforting but terrifying. But, I don't feel terrified after it happens.
I think Iāve been doing it that for most of my life, and Iāve had a few brief moments were I broke out of it. Those memories are few and far between, but theyāre very clear, in comparison to most of my other memories.
(Some potentially triggering things below)
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For example, around six years ago (according to my younger sister, who has better memory than most of our family combined), I was going through a very bad period in my life. Things that happened before that moment in my life was finally catching up to me, I guess. I was being bullied at school again, some personal family things were happening, and since I suspect that Iām on the Autism Spectrum; I also suspect that I was dealing with overstimulation. I was having frequent nightmares, experienced sleep paralysis for the first time. I had no energy to do anything but draw, watch YouTube, and sleep. I didnāt eat much of anything besides small snacks, I rarely slept and never stayed asleep, I rarely attended to any of my personal hygiene. I started having panic attacks and meltdowns every morning before school, I was terrified of leaving the house.
But in between all that, I was felt nothing and thought of nothing. I was self harming again, in an attempt to have some control of my life and in attempt to feel something. At some point, I remember watching a movie with my youngest sister in our oldest sisterās room; when she suddenly asked me what year I thought it was.
I donāt remember the year in which this happened, and I donāt remember what year I told her I thought it was, but I have this very clear memory of her saying: āNo. That was three years ago.ā
Iāve dissociated and hit my boyfriend before. I donāt remember it but my boyfriend told me he have. I also dissociate a lot when Iām getting yelled at
idk if i dissociate but i zone out all the time.. im just kind of there and then im not and then im back again and an hour has passed. i dont even feel it.
The experience i remember that gets me the most is when i was working at walmart and suddenly while pushing one of the L carts, i felt extremley odd. I felt confused and foggy for a solid min, the lights seemed brighter than usual, things were just a little fuzzy, it was hard to process thoughts. I felt mostly mentally present but was still looking around and thinking running through my head like a checklist "wait, whats going on? Im standing here at walmart… im in my vest so im working.. holding this cart with random things in it… i guess i was just cleaning under the counters. I need to take theese to the bins in the back." then it would click and id remember everything and things would start to clear up a little and id remember what i was doing. Then i felt alot of anxiety after because i didnt understand what had happened. Any idea what this is?
I have a couple of things that happen that I donāt know whether or not itās a part of this.
Sometimes I feel like Iām literally pulled up out of my body by a few feet and dropped back in. Makes me twitch slightly because I felt like I was falling, and being back in my body is disorienting and balance is hard.
There are other times where it seems as if there is this field of deafening silence. Itās silent that it feels like a thick field. It is usually accompanied by a ringing in one or both ears and a loss of balance and of feeling that I know where I am in space or time.
Have you guys heard of this or experienced any thing along these lines??
For me, it feels like i don't know where i am or what i am doing. i dont cry or feel sad. Sometimes, i want to cry but forget what i was sad about. I dont have a future or past. I just wake up everyday to feel numb and go back to sleep. Nothing else. It is very empty.
I think I disassociated when I had my son, natural birth, 10lb baby. It felt like I was being murdered, like stabbed to death maybe, for hours and days. (In reality it was probably only one hour). I sort of went out of my body, there was a lady in the bed making sounds like an infant crying (scream, take a deep breath, scream, take a deep breath, like the whaaahhh of a baby crying) and the lady in the bed had a lot of pain and I felt her pain. But I didnāt feel pain, if that makes any damn sense at all. Almost like when you watch a movie and itās sad and you cry for the situation the main character is in, but all along you know thatās not really happened to you, that itās a movie and that this is an actor. Thatās what the birth was like, I was watching this lady be in pain and I felt her pain but it was me and and I heard her screaming but I wasnāt screaming, I was sorta on the ceiling in the room. And then he was out and the light coming in the window was soooooo warm, it just enveloped me in the most pleasant warmness and I just was staring at the light and I just wanted to sunbathe in this light forever. I wanted nothing to do with whatever was happening in the room, nurses were talking to me but I had no interest in what they might be saying because I was in the light and finally peaceful. Is that disassociation? It was so weird.
I feel like Iām not participating in my life. Like people talk to me and I have little to nothing to say and it leaves me feeling stupid.
What is the best way to deal with dissociation, are there techniques? Iāve realised Iāve been in and out of it all my life
I don't think this is dissociation, but I'm not sure what to name a certain state of mind I had yesterday–
I felt kinda of… Spacey inside, as if my entrails were never there and the only thing filling me up was the void .
I also felt kinda "distant" from the world. I don't know how to explain it because I am not currently feeling like that right now, so I don't remember the details, BUT I did not see myself in 3rd person, the only thing is that I was staring off into nothing
I'm kind of here to double check on something. Yesterday after work I didn't feel like myself or I felt a feeling I've never felt before. Best word I can descibe it was numb??? Orrr idk I knew i was physically there but not 100%. It lasted from 1pm till the next day (today) and I'm only just now questioning it because it was out of character for me. It's weird trying to remember the feeling but at the time I didn't notice š
It's pretty awesome being able to read the comments and see everyone pinpointed literally EVERY single exact thing that also happens to me when I dissociate.
When I depersonalize now I use it to my advantage, I tell myself lifeās ājust a gameā and carry on pretending in a very lighthearted and silly way until it goes away lol
I donāt think itās dissociation that Iām feeling, but I canāt process the fact that Iām real. Saying it is no big deal. yeah, I guess I exist, but I still donāt feel convinced. I can slap myself across the face and it will feel like someone else hit me, like I donāt have the physical ability to touch or feel. I canāt focus on things visually, either. I canāt name a single time in years that Iāve actually looked directly at something. I always feel like Iām zoned out and looking off into the distance. People have gotten angry at me for staring directly at them for minutes on end, and I didnāt even realize I was looking at a person.
Also, is thinking nonstop normal? I donāt mean like processing my surroundings. I mean thinking random things that sometimes canāt even be described by words, and more than one thing at a time too. Like right now, Iām simultaneously thinking about what Iām writing, how edgy it must seem, and oddly enough, about what would happen if I broke a bone this weekend.
Could this just be the result of overthinking?
To be frank, this woman looks like a sociopathic narcissist herself. Hahaha
I am wondering if this is the same as what I've experienced. Throughout my life I've occasionally been struck with this sudden realization that I am a real person. I exist and others perceive me to be real. I am a sister to someone. I am someone's daughter. But it somehow doesnt feel real. Like it's all been a dream or something. I haven't experienced it in a while so I can't remember exactly but I'm wondering if anyone can relate
Motorcycle riding has helped me more than anything else tbh. Not sure why, but throttle therapy is real š
I havenāt had a good day in who knows how long. Iām constantly disassociating all day.
I heard of people that experienced the Alice Phenomenon, which makes them feel like they shrink or grow. Sometimes I just feel like I'm swaying but sometimes experience something similar to the Alice Phenomenon. Sometimes I wondered if it has something to do with my blood pressure or something. Idk. Yes, I wondered what kind of woman I should be. So I guess I have dissociation too. That's why I like to have people around to distract me from dissociation.
Iāve been trying to figure out whatās wrong with me, because Iām aware whatever Iām constantly feeling isnāt normal, but I never knew exactly what it was or if thereās a name for it. Sometimes I feel like the only one in the world who has this feeling because my environment consists of ppl who seem soā¦. Connected to themselves and who they are. I think this is the closest Iāve ever gotten to naming and knowing whatās wrong with me. I have most of these symptoms and Iāve been dealing with foggy memory, foggy mind, limited emotions, and especially not even knowing myself. A lot of the times I canāt describe this feeling and often just say āI donāt knowā as a description of it, considering itās so complicated. Iām tired of living like this every day, and itās been happening for 2 years now. I canāt get a therapist, I doubt school counselors help, and the online therapyās Iāve seen usually require money. Iām lost Iām confused and Iām tired of living like this 24/7. Whatever dissociative feeling I have, it interferes with my everyday life and I canāt live like this anymoreā¦. Any suggestions on what I can do?
I donāt even realize how stressed Iāve been for so long until you describe these things and then itās like wow Iāve been stressed for along time I guess?
I have this everyday I smoke bud everyday and other stuff that aināt gd š
And I feel as if Iāve been loosing my sanity my friends just see me as the dopey one that isnāt there I loose track of the task Iām doing as Iām doing it. Iām so easily distracted does and one know what u should do?
Iām stopping smoking/drugs etc
I don't know if it's disassociation or not but randomly in the day I feel as if I cannot function properly I mean I feel toxicly positive and my brain tells me it's alright when some part of me is in a state of panic, in such a situation for example mid exam I can't focus
I don't know how to put the feeling into words…
Is it bad that I no longer can "feel" sometimes. I can't tell if I'm myself anymore. Then I suddenly get snapped back when someone even remotely triggers me. I'm so terrified of "feeling" again, its comforting but terrifying. But, I don't feel terrified after it happens.
I think Iāve been doing it that for most of my life, and Iāve had a few brief moments were I broke out of it. Those memories are few and far between, but theyāre very clear, in comparison to most of my other memories.
(Some potentially triggering things below)
āāā-
For example, around six years ago (according to my younger sister, who has better memory than most of our family combined), I was going through a very bad period in my life. Things that happened before that moment in my life was finally catching up to me, I guess. I was being bullied at school again, some personal family things were happening, and since I suspect that Iām on the Autism Spectrum; I also suspect that I was dealing with overstimulation. I was having frequent nightmares, experienced sleep paralysis for the first time. I had no energy to do anything but draw, watch YouTube, and sleep. I didnāt eat much of anything besides small snacks, I rarely slept and never stayed asleep, I rarely attended to any of my personal hygiene. I started having panic attacks and meltdowns every morning before school, I was terrified of leaving the house.
But in between all that, I was felt nothing and thought of nothing. I was self harming again, in an attempt to have some control of my life and in attempt to feel something. At some point, I remember watching a movie with my youngest sister in our oldest sisterās room; when she suddenly asked me what year I thought it was.
I donāt remember the year in which this happened, and I donāt remember what year I told her I thought it was, but I have this very clear memory of her saying: āNo. That was three years ago.ā
The sound of my own voice freaks me outā¦
I feel like Iām brain deadā¦.
I freak out when I look in the mirror or think about myselfā¦ā¦
I feel emotionally numb
I feel physically numb too
I feel unrealā¦.
I get blurry vision if Iām really anxious
Panic disorder
Health anxiety
I feel like Iām getting worse and donāt feel like myself
Had this for 1 year now and itās so hard to function š¢š¢
Itās causing me to have violent and murderous thoughts
I have a high tolerance for pain, could this be the reason why?