This is a long one so if you make it through, thank you. Today I talk about my first-ever Anxiety attack and what lead up to it and my …
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Allie, first I am so sorry you went through all that. My son developed Anxieties while in the Navy. He was honorably discharged and is on 100% disability. The Anxieties can lead into seizures. He takes CBD, without THC, and it does help. I am so glad you have a good support group, and someone close to you who has gone through Anxieties. Take care of yourself.💕🙏
I also deal with constant anxiety and a panic disorder and depression i totally get what ur feeling and about the guilt with your pups, maybe it would be easier to put zo mar and Diesels belongings away, i personally when i lost my fur baby i couldnt bare give their stuff to my new fur baby, so maybe them having their own things and bed would be easier to heal instead of seeing them play with or lay in their beds. And choose a special belonging from each and do a lil shadow box. I kept a favorite toy and first collars.
I don't get more panic attacks but it's rare when I get a panic attack cuz I think my brain is trying to do two things at once so my heart will like you said was here and grated your heart just feels like it's going to be right out of you but I'm always able to calm myself down and think anxiety attacks are a little different than panic attacks
As someone that struggles with CPTSD and depression and anxiety daily I will say that cbd and thc helped me in ways that pharmaceuticals never could. You got this stay strong ❤
I'm not sure this works for everybody but I have real bad panic attacks and I discovered that cutting out caffeine helped stop most of the bad ones! Whenever I start getting anxiety that is leaning towards an attack I think OK my level of caffeine is too high and stop for a week and I seem to calm down!
I was going through the loss of my father in law last fall and I started experiencing panic attacks around the same time. It was so horrible and scary. I ended up going to urgent care 3 times to get checked out because I didn’t understand why I felt that way. Its so hard to deal with and I hope you can get better and learn to cope with this new part of your life
I had a terrible anxiety attack in college and it ended up being linked to thyroid disease. Not sure if you've had yours checked but it may be worth doing. Thyroid levels also affect fertility and maybe could aid in your journey to baby #2!
I empathize with you tremendously Allie. It so scary when going thru those situations, as I experienced myself. I hope you find the right help and take care of yourself. Us moms, it's so easy to focus on everyone but ourselves and our mental health❤
When you go too the hospital and they want you too see a dr you tell that dr office you were in er. We just went through er visit with Alyssa and her heart issues. She never had heart issues before. She lost 50 lbs. and we got into a cardiologist that same week . Turns out she needs stress test etc .
Allie, don't minimize your feelings. Depression is defined in the DSM-5 as criteria for diagnoses – 'the individual must be experiencing five or more symptoms during the same 2-week period and at least one of the symptoms should be either (1) depressed mood or (2) loss of interest or pleasure… Getting help is super important, but also allowing yourself to understand and validate what you went through is a big part of it too. <3
If you truly love animals and bring them into your home as part of your family, you raise them like a baby, you love them as you would a child and they love you back in return 100 fold. They comfort you during the hard times. They celebrate and love on you in the good times. Their love is unconditional and to have that love and bond so strongly from a 6 week old puppy or kitten, in fact any animal that comes into your life for a minimum of 10 years but quite often 16-18 years is a long long time for anyone to experience that type of love in your life and to lose it from your life so suddenly is just as devastating as losing anyone else in your life that has played such a fundamental role in your life. You will mourn and grieve in exactly the same way as if you’ve lost a family member. To some people their animals are their babies, their children and to lose them feels like losing their child. It is devastating and the grief is real and raw. I totally empathise with you Allie because Diesel was there with you for 16 years. 16 years of ups and downs tears of joy and sadness, yet he was always there for you. He was your baby and your best friend. He never judged you. At least now you know the symptoms, the things to look for and god forbid when it becomes Oaky and Penny’s times in years to come, you can be there to help Remi through what could be a similar reaction too. Losing ŷour best friend is devastating and even now you can see how close she is with them. Stay safe and look after ŷour heart, because it’s a precious one.
I am sending you so much love Allie. I know I said this on the main channel but, I went through the same thing with my pup in October and you explained the heartbreak so well. Watching your new crazy pups play with Remi is helping me so much. I am still sad at least a few times every day. Just know that you are not crying alone. XOXO
Great video, thank you for sharing Allie. Going through something similar with panic/anxiety the last two years. Its been a journey of healing. Taking it day by day. God bless
I took Zoloft for years. Now I take Celexa. Depression and anxiety has been with me for many years. I also have asthma and arthritis I'm dealing with. Love your videos. Thank you.
I’ve had a panic disorder since I was 15. I’m 33 now. It’s a living hell. I struggle daily with anxiety attacks and have the occasional panic attack. 😢 Hang in there ❤
Allie- please hear this. With all of the heavy situations you’ve gone thru in only a few years time anxiety was almost inevitable. A person can only handle so much stress and emotional turmoil before the body becomes affected. Prolonged stress and heightened emotion produces chemicals and hormones that over time lead to imbalances and then you begin to feel the repercussions of it – anxiety, depression or both. Incidentally I found this out by dealing with almost a carbon copy of your story. My 4 year old sons cancer diagnosis, loss, an ectopic pregnancy that nearly took my life, stress then from another child being born and a myriad of smaller events all lead to my first anxiety attack at age 35. Like you, I don’t like taking any medication if possible. I got passed that first episode and 2 years later I found myself with another round of extreme anxiety. It occurs out of nowhere and seemingly for no reason. But there is a reason. PTSD. When you are faced with life threatening situations with loved ones and yourself repeatedly it wreaks havoc on your mental state. You can only be ‘on alert’ for so long without it becoming trauma. I encourage you to continue putting yourself first. You can’t help anyone else if you aren’t healthy. You’re incredibly self aware and in tune with your body. Best of luck ❤️
I've been fighting off major anxiety attacks since I busted my husband of 21 yrs having an affair, but it doesn't end there because I found out via my new doctor that he's an extremely high level grandiose narcissist on top of dealing with hurricane Ian on my own. 😢
He's been trying extremely hard to gaslight me doing all sorts of things, but I'm trying to hang in there through it all. I've just been dealing with all his flying monkeys & constantly lies to degrade me. Grandiose narcissists are fabulous liars! I wouldn't wish one on my worst enemy! 😭
I could start up a whole YouTube channel about my life & help a lot of people going through this in the process. I keep saying that I feel like I'm living a REAL Lifetime movie!
I can usually feel a panic attack coming on well before it hits me, but I can't always shake one off with the amount of stress I'm going through.
I can tell you the magnesium I take does help considerably, but there are days when I know I could use a lot more than my magnesium. 😢
Hang in there Allie! It does get better over time or maybe I'm just that use to them? 🤷🏼♀️
I'll keep you in my prayers, because panic attacks are super scary indeed! 😢 🙏
One of the hardest things you can do is to let go of someone you love. You did your best for D and you gave him a great life. Grief is difficult and we all go through it sometime. You grieve the way that works for you and that is okay. Those puppies bring joy to everyone and I hope your guilt lessons over time and you can remember D with happiness and not so much grief or guilt. The one thing that always amazes me is how each of us goes through so many things and no one can see it unless we tell them. We look at people and can't see all the difficult things they have been through. A friend of mine who has General Anxiety Disorder has found some relief with the medication called Buspar. It isn't addictive an help your brain with serotonin levels.
Wow — I am right there with ya. I had the worst panic attack of my life just over a year ago on March 7, 2022. I'll never forget it. I let it derail my life for a few months, and then decided to go on anxiety meds, start therapy, and I've been working out regularly 🥳 That's all helped a ton. Sending hugs ❤️
22:25 this is the part of the journey that sucks the most. You rarely get the right medication the first round. Psychiatric medicine is a very hit or miss science. I didn’t find the one that worked for me (Paxil) until maybe the 5th round of new medicines I tried came around. The first few either made me too tired or made me too wired which triggered my anxiety more, so making the issue worse.
Also I’m commenting as I’m watching haha. I think it’s also important to stop and take inventory of what you have going on. It can give some peace knowing you’re not just feeling overwhelmed, you may legitimately have a lot going on that you just aren’t taking into account.
Please know that what you experienced is textbook panic attack. The moment you said you felt like you were having a heart attack I knew what that was. I’ve been diagnosed with panic disorder since 2015 and have to journal the amount of attacks I experience. Most of them are anxiety attacks but every now and then one of the “big ones” comes and it feels like you’re dying.
Allie, therapy might help you a lot. I’ve struggled with anxiety/panic attacks for over 3 year in the past and therapy was the thing that really saved me. I’ve been doing therapy for a little over 1 year now and I was able to really understand what I was feeling and don’t feel anxiety anymore. You will get through this. We’re here for you 💖💖💖
Thanks for sharing your story Allie! It takes alot of courage. I've had panic attacks and severe anxiety for over 14years now. Having a panic attack can definitely leave you with PTSD around the attack. Just last night I woke from a dead sleep with my heartrate going 178 on my Apple Watch. What a trip. LOL I was able to change my life by following the teachings of Dr Claire Weekes. She's a true pioneer in anxiety treatment. I'm glad you're on the road to recovery! God Bless!🙌
I'm shocked I haven't had one. I had a baby last July, then my 3 year old broke her leg, I had to go back to work, my dog had his tail amputated, a banking error deducted $30k from my account…my husband was always at work and I was very lonely and overwhelmed. Idk how I made it!
Allie, I know I’m just a person behind a keyboard, but I just want to let you know, it’s a process. It’s up and down. Panic attacks are so often for me. The ridiculous thing, the more they happen, the more you understand the signs. That “sense of doom” never goes away from the panic attacks, but you learn that it’s just your brain misfiring. Once you get a good handle on it, something situational will come along and you’ll feel like you’re back at square one. You aren’t though. Every experience of anxiety or panic attacks brings knowledge. It’s frustrating but it prepares you for future ones. I’ve had diagnosed anxiety for 20 years and I’m only 33. I’m a seasoned veteran at this point. If I can offer any advice, it’s to feel all of your feelings. Even the terrifying ones because if you try to stuff them down, you’ll start not feeling the good things as strongly.
And find the right medication. Whether it’s natural or pharmaceutical. It makes it so much harder when you’re on medication that’s working against you instead of with you.
Just know, there’s a bunch of us out here rooting for you, and we also are going through it. You are not alone.
I’m glad you’ve been okay without medicine. I am like you and meds were hell for me but it was for 2 years for me and I also hate medicine. Working out and cbd is a great plan! And works for a lot of people
anxiety is absolute hell. I am sorry you are having to deal with this. I hope you will consider therapy to learn some techniques to learn how to manage the attacks. There are so many techniques !
There's an old Jewish proverb, which I will only sum up, where a put upon father goes to his Rabbi and complains about his wife's mother living with them. So the Rabbi tells him to invite his parents in. Small house, kids, it's too much, he goes back to tell the Rabbi it's really crazy now and he hates it. The Rabbi suggests he move some farm animals inside. Etc. Now, I'm the guy who said not to adopt another dog (the day before you'd said you were going to a shelter). Let me tell you that I'm old, I've been around a lot of people on the edge and that was you. Yes, I'm the guy who unsubbed when you adopted two puppies, one a Jack Russel– the mad dog. Well, I couldn't stay away because I really care for you all. And the point of the Rabbi's advice is, you only think you've got pressure– now your Mother in law doesn't look so bad. Now I'm not trying to be a wise guy, nor an I-told-you-so– really not. But anyone who watched you at all closely, could see you were powerfully affected by all that was going on. You even had a family member pass that was mentioned in passing. So there was even more strain in the time period you are referencing. I've told this story several times here– I was "given" a 7-week old cat when I was 7– I was 21 when she passed under poor circumstances and I was devastated. I have never had another cat or pet of any kind. Because I'm attached enough to people.
As for you– the whole Trippy clan — I pretty close to love you guys. Charles has shown some of his fears around his circumstances, and to have one's very brain a traitor is hard to imagine. You telling of us of your fears and major concerns– well, you showed us. And it hurt. Still does, I don't like seeing my loved ones crying. That's part of an explanation about my reaction. (Someone dismissed my actions as "dramatic" — but apparently seeing you crying for several days in a row is not dramatic.) I'm glad you're opening up, glad too that you're getting help. Your heart attack account and trip to the ER at the time was harrowing. Glad that the symptoms are serious but not grave and addressable with drugs.
I can't remember if you've tried transcendental meditation– perhaps that can help.
So glad you shared this. My mom passed 16 years ago when I was 14 and since then I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression and had multiple triggers wether it be from break ups, work stress, family stress etc. I started on meds for the first time this past year and it totally changed my life. I think the main message here is that even if meds aren’t the answer for you, if you’re struggling at all , please seek help!
Thanks for sharing Allie, this video could not have been easy to do. The information you shared can only help others and you should be proud of that. Glad your feeling better, stay well my friend 👍❤
Panick attacks and general anxiety disorder is a very scary and real thing. I have struggled with these since my 20's. I have been down that road of trying just about every psych. medication out there and none of them work on me for very long. Come to find out through some genetics testing that I have a gene that somehow makes my body metabolize them so quickly that they just don't work on me properly. so, my doctors had to keep increasing dosages. Not worth all that in my book. Talk therapy should always be #1 on our list for treatment of these things. It's the only thing that has truly helped me through life's challenges. I know this feels like it's a physical, medical issue, but our minds are so strong. Even if you are the best communicator in the world sometimes we need the right kind of help. Not speaking badly about psych. meds. They are a very important tool when it comes to aiding in mental health treatment. I wish you the best in your journey to finding peace and healing!
Allie, first I am so sorry you went through all that. My son developed Anxieties while in the Navy. He was honorably discharged and is on 100% disability. The Anxieties can lead into seizures. He takes CBD, without THC, and it does help. I am so glad you have a good support group, and someone close to you who has gone through Anxieties. Take care of yourself.💕🙏
I also deal with constant anxiety and a panic disorder and depression i totally get what ur feeling and about the guilt with your pups, maybe it would be easier to put zo mar and Diesels belongings away, i personally when i lost my fur baby i couldnt bare give their stuff to my new fur baby, so maybe them having their own things and bed would be easier to heal instead of seeing them play with or lay in their beds. And choose a special belonging from each and do a lil shadow box. I kept a favorite toy and first collars.
I don't get more panic attacks but it's rare when I get a panic attack cuz I think my brain is trying to do two things at once so my heart will like you said was here and grated your heart just feels like it's going to be right out of you but I'm always able to calm myself down and think anxiety attacks are a little different than panic attacks
I’ve had my dog for 19 years, I see him slowing down and I know it’s going to happen but it still hurts💔
As someone that struggles with CPTSD and depression and anxiety daily I will say that cbd and thc helped me in ways that pharmaceuticals never could. You got this stay strong ❤
I'm not sure this works for everybody but I have real bad panic attacks and I discovered that cutting out caffeine helped stop most of the bad ones! Whenever I start getting anxiety that is leaning towards an attack I think OK my level of caffeine is too high and stop for a week and I seem to calm down!
I was going through the loss of my father in law last fall and I started experiencing panic attacks around the same time. It was so horrible and scary. I ended up going to urgent care 3 times to get checked out because I didn’t understand why I felt that way. Its so hard to deal with and I hope you can get better and learn to cope with this new part of your life
I had my first anxiety attack about a month ago. Hearing all of this from you is SO incredibly validating. ❤️ Thank you for sharing and stay well.
My opinion: Please don't take pills for anxiety. That's not a cure. Meditation is the key.
I had a terrible anxiety attack in college and it ended up being linked to thyroid disease. Not sure if you've had yours checked but it may be worth doing. Thyroid levels also affect fertility and maybe could aid in your journey to baby #2!
I empathize with you tremendously Allie. It so scary when going thru those situations, as I experienced myself. I hope you find the right help and take care of yourself. Us moms, it's so easy to focus on everyone but ourselves and our mental health❤
If you ever get pregnant can you take all those meds?
Allie of all people too be under the 95% it would be you. Lol
When you go too the hospital and they want you too see a dr you tell that dr office you were in er. We just went through er visit with Alyssa and her heart issues. She never had heart issues before. She lost 50 lbs. and we got into a cardiologist that same week . Turns out she needs stress test etc .
Animals are a part of your family. How can some of your family not know this? You had diesel for 16 long years.
That’s a bad anxiety you had. Too me more like a heart attack . How does anxiety cause the pain you were going through ?
Diesel is no longer suffering❤❤❤ he is still with you in your heart and spirit.
Allie take care of yourself !! My husband has anxiety but know longer taken his meds.
Allie, don't minimize your feelings. Depression is defined in the DSM-5 as criteria for diagnoses – 'the individual must be experiencing five or more symptoms during the same 2-week period and at least one of the symptoms should be either (1) depressed mood or (2) loss of interest or pleasure… Getting help is super important, but also allowing yourself to understand and validate what you went through is a big part of it too. <3
If you truly love animals and bring them into your home as part of your family, you raise them like a baby, you love them as you would a child and they love you back in return 100 fold. They comfort you during the hard times. They celebrate and love on you in the good times. Their love is unconditional and to have that love and bond so strongly from a 6 week old puppy or kitten, in fact any animal that comes into your life for a minimum of 10 years but quite often 16-18 years is a long long time for anyone to experience that type of love in your life and to lose it from your life so suddenly is just as devastating as losing anyone else in your life that has played such a fundamental role in your life. You will mourn and grieve in exactly the same way as if you’ve lost a family member. To some people their animals are their babies, their children and to lose them feels like losing their child. It is devastating and the grief is real and raw. I totally empathise with you Allie because Diesel was there with you for 16 years. 16 years of ups and downs tears of joy and sadness, yet he was always there for you. He was your baby and your best friend. He never judged you. At least now you know the symptoms, the things to look for and god forbid when it becomes Oaky and Penny’s times in years to come, you can be there to help Remi through what could be a similar reaction too. Losing ŷour best friend is devastating and even now you can see how close she is with them. Stay safe and look after ŷour heart, because it’s a precious one.
👋 you can do it 💖😘
I am sending you so much love Allie. I know I said this on the main channel but, I went through the same thing with my pup in October and you explained the heartbreak so well. Watching your new crazy pups play with Remi is helping me so much. I am still sad at least a few times every day. Just know that you are not crying alone. XOXO
Great video, thank you for sharing Allie. Going through something similar with panic/anxiety the last two years. Its been a journey of healing. Taking it day by day. God bless
I took Zoloft for years. Now I take Celexa. Depression and anxiety has been with me for many years. I also have asthma and arthritis I'm dealing with. Love your videos. Thank you.
I’ve had a panic disorder since I was 15. I’m 33 now. It’s a living hell. I struggle daily with anxiety attacks and have the occasional panic attack. 😢 Hang in there ❤
Allie- please hear this. With all of the heavy situations you’ve gone thru in only a few years time anxiety was almost inevitable. A person can only handle so much stress and emotional turmoil before the body becomes affected. Prolonged stress and heightened emotion produces chemicals and hormones that over time lead to imbalances and then you begin to feel the repercussions of it – anxiety, depression or both.
Incidentally I found this out by dealing with almost a carbon copy of your story. My 4 year old sons cancer diagnosis, loss, an ectopic pregnancy that nearly took my life, stress then from another child being born and a myriad of smaller events all lead to my first anxiety attack at age 35. Like you, I don’t like taking any medication if possible. I got passed that first episode and 2 years later I found myself with another round of extreme anxiety. It occurs out of nowhere and seemingly for no reason.
But there is a reason. PTSD. When you are faced with life threatening situations with loved ones and yourself repeatedly it wreaks havoc on your mental state. You can only be ‘on alert’ for so long without it becoming trauma.
I encourage you to continue putting yourself first. You can’t help anyone else if you aren’t healthy. You’re incredibly self aware and in tune with your body. Best of luck ❤️
I've been fighting off major anxiety attacks since I busted my husband of 21 yrs having an affair, but it doesn't end there because I found out via my new doctor that he's an extremely high level grandiose narcissist on top of dealing with hurricane Ian on my own. 😢
He's been trying extremely hard to gaslight me doing all sorts of things, but I'm trying to hang in there through it all. I've just been dealing with all his flying monkeys & constantly lies to degrade me. Grandiose narcissists are fabulous liars! I wouldn't wish one on my worst enemy! 😭
I could start up a whole YouTube channel about my life & help a lot of people going through this in the process. I keep saying that I feel like I'm living a REAL Lifetime movie!
I can usually feel a panic attack coming on well before it hits me, but I can't always shake one off with the amount of stress I'm going through.
I can tell you the magnesium I take does help considerably, but there are days when I know I could use a lot more than my magnesium. 😢
Hang in there Allie! It does get better over time or maybe I'm just that use to them? 🤷🏼♀️
I'll keep you in my prayers, because panic attacks are super scary indeed! 😢 🙏
One of the hardest things you can do is to let go of someone you love. You did your best for D and you gave him a great life. Grief is difficult and we all go through it sometime. You grieve the way that works for you and that is okay. Those puppies bring joy to everyone and I hope your guilt lessons over time and you can remember D with happiness and not so much grief or guilt. The one thing that always amazes me is how each of us goes through so many things and no one can see it unless we tell them. We look at people and can't see all the difficult things they have been through. A friend of mine who has General Anxiety Disorder has found some relief with the medication called Buspar. It isn't addictive an help your brain with serotonin levels.
i feel your pain…hugs to you allie
Wow — I am right there with ya. I had the worst panic attack of my life just over a year ago on March 7, 2022. I'll never forget it. I let it derail my life for a few months, and then decided to go on anxiety meds, start therapy, and I've been working out regularly 🥳 That's all helped a ton. Sending hugs ❤️
23:14 I LOVE THIS GROUNDING TECHNIQUE.
22:25 this is the part of the journey that sucks the most. You rarely get the right medication the first round. Psychiatric medicine is a very hit or miss science. I didn’t find the one that worked for me (Paxil) until maybe the 5th round of new medicines I tried came around. The first few either made me too tired or made me too wired which triggered my anxiety more, so making the issue worse.
Woah it’s been 3 years since Charles had a seizure?! That’s huge!
Also I’m commenting as I’m watching haha. I think it’s also important to stop and take inventory of what you have going on. It can give some peace knowing you’re not just feeling overwhelmed, you may legitimately have a lot going on that you just aren’t taking into account.
Please know that what you experienced is textbook panic attack. The moment you said you felt like you were having a heart attack I knew what that was. I’ve been diagnosed with panic disorder since 2015 and have to journal the amount of attacks I experience. Most of them are anxiety attacks but every now and then one of the “big ones” comes and it feels like you’re dying.
Allie I’m so happy for you that you are felling better. You look much better , I can tell in you eyes. Stay well and take care of yourself ♥️🌻
Allie, therapy might help you a lot. I’ve struggled with anxiety/panic attacks for over 3 year in the past and therapy was the thing that really saved me.
I’ve been doing therapy for a little over 1 year now and I was able to really understand what I was feeling and don’t feel anxiety anymore.
You will get through this. We’re here for you 💖💖💖
Thanks for sharing your story Allie! It takes alot of courage. I've had panic attacks and severe anxiety for over 14years now. Having a panic attack can definitely leave you with PTSD around the attack. Just last night I woke from a dead sleep with my heartrate going 178 on my Apple Watch. What a trip. LOL I was able to change my life by following the teachings of Dr Claire Weekes. She's a true pioneer in anxiety treatment. I'm glad you're on the road to recovery! God Bless!🙌
I'm shocked I haven't had one. I had a baby last July, then my 3 year old broke her leg, I had to go back to work, my dog had his tail amputated, a banking error deducted $30k from my account…my husband was always at work and I was very lonely and overwhelmed. Idk how I made it!
Thanks for sharing Allie❤I'm glad you're feeling better ❤❤❤
Allie, I know I’m just a person behind a keyboard, but I just want to let you know, it’s a process. It’s up and down. Panic attacks are so often for me. The ridiculous thing, the more they happen, the more you understand the signs. That “sense of doom” never goes away from the panic attacks, but you learn that it’s just your brain misfiring. Once you get a good handle on it, something situational will come along and you’ll feel like you’re back at square one. You aren’t though. Every experience of anxiety or panic attacks brings knowledge. It’s frustrating but it prepares you for future ones. I’ve had diagnosed anxiety for 20 years and I’m only 33. I’m a seasoned veteran at this point. If I can offer any advice, it’s to feel all of your feelings. Even the terrifying ones because if you try to stuff them down, you’ll start not feeling the good things as strongly.
And find the right medication. Whether it’s natural or pharmaceutical. It makes it so much harder when you’re on medication that’s working against you instead of with you.
Just know, there’s a bunch of us out here rooting for you, and we also are going through it. You are not alone.
I’m glad you’ve been okay without medicine. I am like you and meds were hell for me but it was for 2 years for me and I also hate medicine. Working out and cbd is a great plan! And works for a lot of people
anxiety is absolute hell. I am sorry you are having to deal with this. I hope you will consider therapy to learn some techniques to learn how to manage the attacks. There are so many techniques !
Glad I could help. ✌🏻&❤
There's an old Jewish proverb, which I will only sum up, where a put upon father goes to his Rabbi and complains about his wife's mother living with them. So the Rabbi tells him to invite his parents in. Small house, kids, it's too much, he goes back to tell the Rabbi it's really crazy now and he hates it. The Rabbi suggests he move some farm animals inside. Etc. Now, I'm the guy who said not to adopt another dog (the day before you'd said you were going to a shelter). Let me tell you that I'm old, I've been around a lot of people on the edge and that was you. Yes, I'm the guy who unsubbed when you adopted two puppies, one a Jack Russel– the mad dog. Well, I couldn't stay away because I really care for you all. And the point of the Rabbi's advice is, you only think you've got pressure– now your Mother in law doesn't look so bad.
Now I'm not trying to be a wise guy, nor an I-told-you-so– really not. But anyone who watched you at all closely, could see you were powerfully affected by all that was going on. You even had a family member pass that was mentioned in passing. So there was even more strain in the time period you are referencing.
I've told this story several times here– I was "given" a 7-week old cat when I was 7– I was 21 when she passed under poor circumstances and I was devastated. I have never had another cat or pet of any kind. Because I'm attached enough to people.
As for you– the whole Trippy clan — I pretty close to love you guys. Charles has shown some of his fears around his circumstances, and to have one's very brain a traitor is hard to imagine. You telling of us of your fears and major concerns– well, you showed us. And it hurt. Still does, I don't like seeing my loved ones crying. That's part of an explanation about my reaction. (Someone dismissed my actions as "dramatic" — but apparently seeing you crying for several days in a row is not dramatic.) I'm glad you're opening up, glad too that you're getting help. Your heart attack account and trip to the ER at the time was harrowing. Glad that the symptoms are serious but not grave and addressable with drugs.
I can't remember if you've tried transcendental meditation– perhaps that can help.
So glad you shared this. My mom passed 16 years ago when I was 14 and since then I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression and had multiple triggers wether it be from break ups, work stress, family stress etc. I started on meds for the first time this past year and it totally changed my life. I think the main message here is that even if meds aren’t the answer for you, if you’re struggling at all , please seek help!
Thanks for sharing Allie, this video could not have been easy to do. The information you shared can only help others and you should be proud of that. Glad your feeling better, stay well my friend 👍❤
Allie i'm glad you are feeling better
Panick attacks and general anxiety disorder is a very scary and real thing. I have struggled with these since my 20's. I have been down that road of trying just about every psych. medication out there and none of them work on me for very long. Come to find out through some genetics testing that I have a gene that somehow makes my body metabolize them so quickly that they just don't work on me properly. so, my doctors had to keep increasing dosages. Not worth all that in my book. Talk therapy should always be #1 on our list for treatment of these things. It's the only thing that has truly helped me through life's challenges. I know this feels like it's a physical, medical issue, but our minds are so strong. Even if you are the best communicator in the world sometimes we need the right kind of help. Not speaking badly about psych. meds. They are a very important tool when it comes to aiding in mental health treatment. I wish you the best in your journey to finding peace and healing!
Stress and anxiety can affect your infertility as well. Self care is so important.